Former Springbok companion Francois Hougaard opened on the consequences of Reeva Steenkamp's death and the difficulties he had with the attention he received during the trial of his boyfriend Oscar Pistorius.
Hougaard currently works in the United Kingdom for the Worcester Warriors.
Speaking exclusively on the Daily Mail, he described how he and Steenkamp dated for some time and that it was a shock to hear from a friend that she had been shot dead.
It was widely publicized after his death on Valentine's Day in 2013 that Hougaard sent him a SMS shortly before his murder at the hands of the Paralympic athlete.
"Everyone was saying that I sent a message to Reeva and that's why he shot her. I had nothing to do with her, but that's all people asked me." Mentally, that was really difficult, "Hougaard said.
He said he ended up talking to a psychologist who helped him deal with negative situations.
Netwerk24 reported that he and Steenkamp apparently met between October 2012 and early January 2013.
He attended his funeral in Port Elizabeth but did not speak to reporters, according to the TimesLive.
Hougaard's agent, Lorinda Voges, said at the time that "the sad ordeal has nothing to do with it."
Pistorius is currently serving 13 years in prison for the murder, after the Supreme Court of Appeals upped his sentence for manslaughter in five years.
In a television interview with ITV in 2016, Pistorius said he believed that Steenkamp did not want him to lose his life behind bars.
He also said in the interview that, as far as he could remember, she had not received an SMS from Hougaard the night he shot her and that he believed she was an intruder.
Hougaard signed a new contract to stay with the Worcester Warriors until 2021.
He shocked fans earlier this month when he announced that he has left his international career, according to Sport24.
Her decision was said to be informed by the club's commitments and a willingness to study an MBA intensive in business management.